Will to live — where are you?

Hello.

I’ve woken up today. This is great isn’t it? To be alive, without any complications and any real problems. I really just have anything that I could ever wish, but the problem isn’t in that. It is in my life, more specifically in my thoughts.

I’m sure that everyone has stumbled upon the question: “why do I live?” And just today I’ve asked myself that question too. Why do I live? That’s a hard question to answer, when you don’t even know what you’ll have for dinner. Theoretically, the answer should be very easy to find. Because you have loving people around yourself, you have a future, you have everything, but I guess even everything isn’t enough. You see, I’m a really compicated person. I don’t know if there are people that are thinking about their life the same, but everyday, as soon as I open my eyes the first thought that I have is “what interesting is going to happen today, tomorrow, or the day after tomorrow,…” and usually I would find something, an event that will keep me going, and I’ll be happy because of it. But there come days, that there is nothing. There is no thought, no future, It’s just me and the present, that will surely be with me ‘till the end. But what if I don’t want that, If I want more than that, a life worth living, an actual future to hold on, a girlfriend that will love me and a caring family? That is the question that I’m trying to answer. What do you think keeps YOU going? In these times, going forward is the most important thing you need to do. You need to be happy of who you are, what you have, and you really just need to trust yourself. Everything is meant to be, every little decision that you make was planned and it has happened for a reason. It happened, because it needed to happen, because the small decisions, the small regrets that you have make you a stronger and wiser person, who really knows what they are doing on this planet called earth.

I hope you liked my blog.

Yours truly,

Tim